It's been...

It's been 3 years. How time flies just like that. Everything still remains surreal and fake. Whenever I recall the incident, it feels like it was just like a dream, and I really hope I could just wake up from it. There are so many responsibilities that I have to shoulder from now on. There are times when I'm so afraid of the future. Don't know how I am going to face these challenges in life...

What makes me so sad is when daddy requested to talk to me today. And he told me he was sorry for all that has happened. Even as I'm starting school, he's sorry that he can't be there to help me. He's missed my graduation, and he's sorry for all that...

But I still know You are good.

I am not perfect. The more I look at myself in the mirror, I wonder how come God still love me so much. What am I, or rather, who am I that God should die for me? Feel so useless, unworthy and unclean before God.

But I know You will not forsake me.

Help me to become child-like again. Help me to stand up to challenges in life. Help me to become who You want me to be.

I can't live without You. I need You so much more God... Wonder how it would be like if You are not in my life...