Monday, March 10, 2014

Hope that You'll be proud of me

Have always been desperately trying to grasp a tinge of how to cope with the myriad of responsibilities in my life - all of which are so important, and are the things that I treasure so dearly in my heart. Also, it's been close to 5 years since whatever has happened, and I think everyone has started to cope and move on. But somehow, still feeling the repercussions of the aftermath, and the fear of the future.

"How am I going to provide for the family?"

On another facet of the story, it's been exactly 1 year since I took over Northeast. Amidst all the meetings I've held, all the direction we've set, and even the visions and prophecies that were casted, they were all done with so much fear and uncertainty. Beneath the facade of a confident leader, an outspoken care-bear; lies a man who's just so fearful, so afraid of venturing into the unknown terrains in leading human lives. But judging at how things are turning out, I'm just so so thankful that God is the boss. I'm still fearful, but I'm trying - really hard.

Everything around me are so ever changing. People come, people leave. But through mountain highs and valley lows, You are the only constant. God... Help me to find my way home in You as I strive to love You with my ever-changing heart. And at the end of the day, I hope You'll be proud of me.

"Everyday I pray, Jesus more of You each day
All my life proclaims, ten thousand reasons to be praised
What else can I say to You O Lord
You are my everything"