Forgiveness

With the recent tragic accident that has happened to the Yap family, it certainly brought back emotions that were invoked 3-4 years ago... Still remember the scene at SGH's A&E on that fateful Sunday morning. Still remember having the Christmas celebration at church office when I received that call... Following that was a trying period that my family had to go through for a period of 1-2 years. Wondered how daddy felt when he was in a coma and when he died for 4 minutes... Wonder whether he really saw God. Did he speak to Him face to face?

Preceding the recent accident at Tampines, I kept avoiding every conversation I had with my friends about this accident for fear that it would rake up the past and become emotional...

Just last year, remembered daddy crying in his room because he questioned why God had to do this to him..? To be honest, I really don't know. But I know we have to keep encouraging him to press on no matter how tough it gets. Wish I could be home everyday to speak to him and to encourage him, but with my new home at NUS, it's really difficult to find time off to travel home. Although this feeling isn't really good, but I know God's doing something, somehow.

And I think God did something magical in my heart last night as we sang 10,000 reasons and Jesus I Live for service.

I was indeed reminded of God's goodness and faithfulness in this world despite the ugliness of humanity. And I chanced upon this article about the Yap family. Despite everything that has happened, the father of the 2 boys mentioned in his interview with the press: "as a Christian, I must learn to forgive..." Somehow as I read that, tears just welled up in my eyes. Somehow, felt that I could identify a little of what he meant.

Thank you God for reminding me once again that I need to learn to forgive. Just like how You forgave and loved us, help me to become more like You. I want to live my life to love You. I want to live my life being grateful and thankful for all that You've done. :')

I live to praise You Lord
I live to love You Lord
I live to glorify Your name
I live to worship You

Thank You.

It still hurts when I think of the past, but I know God is indeed good and real, therefore I trust, I believe, I thank, I follow, I love...

Thank You Lord.